hello my old heart

I’m realizing that one of my biggest fears is to no longer be desired by the people I care about; a fear of “over-staying my welcome.” So I intentionally distance myself until they miss me, then I return to their lives. And the cycle continues. I’m also realizing that I’m not the only one who feels this way or tends… Read more →


I remember I  was sitting at the kitchen table. My parents were cooking dinner and there had been a question I had been wanting to ask my mom–only my mom. “Mom?” She looked up from the vegetables she had been chopping. “Mhm?” “How much do you love dad?” My dad stopped preparing whatever he was cooking and looked up at… Read more →

The Art of Feeling

It’s not for the ring. It’s not for the status. It’s not for the security or for the bragging rights. It’s for the love. And it really is that simple. I am undeniably proud of myself–for my job, for staying healthy, for how I carry myself, for my mind and my morals, my beliefs and ideals…I am truly and irrevocably… Read more →


My list of fears is small in scale, but significant in content. My first and true fear, the fear at the top of my list, is time. Time moving too fast, time moving too slow, not having enough time, and having far too much. Regardless of which way time moves or how quickly, one thing is inevitable; time is always… Read more →

There’s a Promise

Journal entry from 2013 I woke up that morning and everything seemed so clear. It was like the answer to all of my penetrating questions was served up gourmet style on a silver platter and placed neatly in my head. College was starting in less than a week and I realized that I had been desperately trying to hold on… Read more →

You Can Say Anything

In this life, we are bound to be set free. So if you could say anything, what would it be? What I want to say and what I want  to feel are things that I have longed for, but have never allowed myself to have. How do you know when to let go; of your fears, your reservations, your doubts…more… Read more →